Why I stopped counting days in marriage.

Lately, I see articles and stories on why marriage don’t last forever. In fact, statistic shows that 4 out of 5 couples opt for legal separation during their prime years.

As a follower of Jesus, the challenge is how not to be a part of the norm? Sadly, the world view marriage only as a part time contract.

Being married for less than a year, indeed is a GREAT CHALLENGE!

To share a few,

My husband and I are completely, if not, extremely different. We have different views, perspective and characteristics. He is hot, I am cold. He is introvert, I am extrovert. He is precise, I exaggerate a lot. Not to mention, we grew up from different cultures and countries.

Thus, I must say, MARRIAGE is NOT EASY. It is a day to day SANCTIFICATION process!!!

In fact, I was NEVER the SAME PERSON I used to be when I was single — selfish, egocentric, overly jealous and controlling.

However, God is FAITHFUL to CHANGE ME day by day through my HUSBAND. Don’t take me wrong, I am FORGIVEN and FREE through the GRACE of GOD even before marriage.

Nevertheless, I am spiritually and emotionally renewed by God after exchanging vows with my husband.

Having said, MARRIAGE made me realized that APART FROM GOD, you will really never make it.

My spouse and I, needed to hold on, hand on hand with Jesus during the course of our marriage… until death do us part.

My take away?

Love is a constant choice of sacrifices, acceptance and forgiveness. These are the things I realized, while dating my husband with Jesus Christ.

Jesus, being part of our marriage is the only reason why I stopped counting days, months and anniversaries. A marriage built on Christ, is meant to last forever.

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Marrying Him is God’s Will.

It’s 3AM, and I am still wide awake..

I feel restless today, so I thought of continuing the post I wrote earlier about…

“I married an unbeliever”

It’s almost two months, since I came back to Philippines. With a heavy heart, I managed living apart from my husband in Sweden. It was never easy especially on realizing things after marriage.

However, God is faithful to hold on to His promises in my life, particularly in marriage. Despite the backslide, a few bumps along the way, little I know God indeed was guiding me all the way.

Marrying my husband is God’s will. Yes, it is His will. If you are a follower of Jesus, there is no accidents with Him. God, being sovereign as always, is in complete control. Likewise, He is and will always be in charge of my life.

Amidst confusion, God is faithful. He revealed to me His plans for my husband, our marriage and his faith in this verse from Romans 15:13,

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

It is the same verse on which God used to speak to me, when God revealed who my husband will be.

Now, if you happen to be on the same road of confusion, like what I had earlier? Never let go of God. Keep praying, believing while standing firm in faith.

Even if you don’t see changes in your situation or circumstances, keep on seeking Him. Is anything too hard for God?

Credits: Pinterest (photo)


I married an unbeliever..

Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.

2 Corinthians 7:10

Have you ever committed a mistake knowingly or unknowingly? Did you realize the need of repentance?

After four months of settling down with my husband, my life became different. It was a process of day-to-day sanctification. True enough, married life is not easy.

My husband is a foreigner (Swede national), and we met last 2016. After almost a year of dating, we decided to get married with the blessing of our parents. Our relationship was up and down, due to difference of faith. I am a Christ follower, and he is not.

With all these prayers, I thought that God have agreed upon my decision to be yoked with a non believer. I decided to shut down voices of my Christian friends, asking me to pray more and decipher God’s will.

If you know me, or want to know my life story, click the link below:

Public Testimony

After marriage, I stayed in his home (Sweden) for half a year. We had issues with relocation process, hence, I went home (Philippines) a week ago.

Ever since I went back, my mind was filled with depressing thoughts. I am living with anguish, not knowing where is it coming from. On bended knees, I asked God why was I sent back home for a while. Is there a purpose to be fulfilled? Why, Lord? Those were the questions which clouded my mind.

Depression affected my marriage, that each time I talk to my husband, we just end up arguing.

Until this morning, I woke up with severe anxiety. My bothered thoughts led me to researching about divorce: unbelieving spouse.

Not knowing what I will find, God is faithful enough to lead me to a SIN, I unconsciously/consciously did — I married an unbeliever.

The bible was very clear (2 Cor 6:14), not to be equally yoke with unbelievers. Indeed, I inflicted pain towards God, and in return, received God’s wrath in my life.

My heart was trembling, and tears went down from my eyes. Immediately, I prayed and repented continuously. Indeed, I am in deep sorrow.

The consequences of my action led me to a godly sorrow, which caused my repentance towards God. I surrendered my marriage in every aspect, and prayed for God to strengthen me in submission to my unbeliever husband despite the circumstance (Eph 5:22-33).

Not knowing how everything would turn out, I know God has forgiven me. In fact, the bible says from 1 John 1:9, God is faithful to forgive if we confess our sins, and He will purify us from all unrighteousness.

Thus, my hope and prayer is that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, and were called according to His purpose (Rom 8:28).

To be continued…

**credits to the owners of above photos attached**


The Perfect Time.

Growing up, I always dream of having a perfect husband. Thinking that my knight and shining armor will come rescue me, yet I never found one. With a heavy heart, I sought love at the wrong places.

Nevertheless, I hit my rock bottom last 2015. It was christmas eve when I encountered Christ through this bible verse, “I will not allow pain without something new to be born again.” Hence, I realized the need to repent and to forgive the people who caused me pain. In return, I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. Since then, I felt complete.

Fast forward to December 2016, I met you at the most unexpected place. We started to know each other without expectations, simply enjoying each other’s company. Although I started to feel something towards you, my heart was still guarded. I prayed in every situation when it comes to you. I knew you were the one, not for how I feel, but because God revealed so.

I love you Jakob, and I desire to be your wife. For 28 years I have prayed that God would lead me to His choice and I am confident that His will is being fulfilled today. Through the pressures of the present and the uncertainties of the future, I promise to be faithful to you. I will love, serve, and obey you as long as we’re both alive. Christ told us that the wife must submit herself unto her own husband as unto the Lord. For as Christ is Head of His Church, so is the husband head of his wife.

Jakob, you have no idea how long I waited for you. Our love story is far from being perfect, yet it will always be my favorite. Until now, I am still in awe on how you respected my decision to keep my purity until this day we say I do. Truly, you are God’s living testimony of His faithfulness in my life.

Indeed, God has made everything beautiful in His time (Ecc 3:11). ❤️




I am no longer slave to fear. So always pray and never give up.

Reading the bible should be a vital part of our relationship to Christ. It is important that we understand the word of God, as we continue our journey on Earth.

However, there are certain parts or books from the bible I try to avoid as much as I can — the book of Revelations. It is where the bible speaks about how the world ends, and how Jesus will return for His people. As scary it may seem, I had the courage to finish it. Thanks to the Holy Spirit!

As I read the word, these are the verses which strike me the most!

The Bible is very clear, a NEW HEAVEN and EARTH will come soon. Having said, everything we see in this world will soon be gone.

One of its promises on which Christians have long been waiting is where God will be with His followers. Pain, suffering and hardships would be taken away. The old pattern of our current world will be extinct.

Revelations stated that God will reveal its full glory to all of us. His followers — the believers of His Son Jesus Christ will inherit an eternal life.

However, for those who follow the devil, the ways of this earthly world such as idolaters, the unbelievers, the sexually immoral, cowards, and all pervert liars will NEVER inherit the kingdom of God. Hence, all will BURN down to a blazing fire of sulfur.

Any unbeliever will never enter God’s kingdom.

The Bible greatly speaks about the 2nd coming of Jesus. Whether when it is suppose to happen, we can’t tell. All we know is that Jesus will SOON return for His people.

Honestly, it is really scary. We deserve to rot in hell because of our sinful nature. Yet, God is patient to each and one of us. He promised to give an ETERNAL LIFE to anyone who would accept Jesus as their Lord and Savior (Rom 6:23).

Thus, it is NOT too late! Repent, accept Jesus and be baptized! The bible says, anyone who confess from their mouth and accept Jesus in their heart as Lord and Savior will be saved. ❤️


Man of God.

“He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the LORD. (Proverbs 18:22)”

Gentlemen, building your career, saving money, getting a huge house, and buying a sports car is NOT wrong. Problems occur when you START to get your IDENTITY on these things.

When you chase the earthly things, the devil finds an opportunity to ATTACK, and STOP you from becoming the man whom God wants you to be. You seek your IDENTITY from money, career or material things, and if it is taken away, you lose yourself. You will NEVER ACCOMPLISH SUCCESS because you are controlled by other elements. 

God wants you to have a VISION. He ordained you to LEAD and TAKE CHARGE. It is better to be MOTIVATED by a vision from God, and not from money. Make sure that your SECURITY is not from things that can be taken anytime away from you.

The biggest assignment that the devil launched against you is for you to SQUANDER your FUTURE. It hinders you from receiving the BLESSINGS, REJOICING and ENJOYING what God planned for you. 

The bible says, he who finds a WIFE finds FAVOR from God. It means — God will bless you EVEN MORE when you’re not afraid to COMMIT. 

When God knows you have a FAMILY to BUILD, He blesses you MORE with eternal and material things. A WIFE is a GIFT from God, because SHE is your HELPER. For is not good for man to be alone, and you need a helper. 

Hence, seek His kingdom first and everything shall be added to you.


Proverbs 31 Woman. 

“For your Maker is your husband– the LORD Almighty is his name– the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth. (Isaiah 54:5)”

Ladies, NEVER look for love at the wrong places. Do not allow your insecurity to cripple from broken relationships, marriages or separation of your parents. God has AMAZING PLANS for your future.

God wants you to know that He alone can give you the love you are longing for. He loves you unconditionally.

The thing is, even if a man of God comes into your life and you are not spiritually ready yet, you will only fail your future spouse. You will only put this man on a pedestal expecting him to satisfy your needs. 

Remember the bible says from Romans 3:23, “humans fall short of the glory of God.” Having said, even a GODLY MAN will sooner or later hurt you, because HE IS NOT GOD. 

Rather, allow God to work on you. Be that Proverbs 31 Woman who knows what she wants in her life.


Idolizing Marriage.

“Fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. (Hebrews 12:12)”

Have you ever wanted something in your life, so badly? Whether it is your job, money, fame or a person, we all have secret desires. In my case, I want MARRIAGE.

Following Jesus for almost two years takes a lot of effort. Actually, not from you, but Him. 

After submitting my life to Christ, and being single for a year, I thought I was all set. I was mentally, psychologically and physically prepared for my future spouse. I prayed hard for Him to answer. I was very impatient.

I started asking God for a husband, until He sent what I needed. Yet, I was slow and careful in entering this relationship because I never wanted to get hurt. Nevertheless, I still grabbed the opportunity because of God’s comfirmation.

Over the course of our relationship, I know HE IS THE ONE — simply because GOD SAID SO

I started rushing things, bringing the idea of marriage into it. In my mind, I have this picture of him and I saying our vows in the eyes of God. However, my future spouse isn’t ready yet. 

He asked me to wait, while working on his relationship with God and his dreams. Although I completely understand what he wants, I started losing my patience.

I started to question Jesus regarding the man He sent me. My fears crippled in my heart, and raised in my thoughts. I tried to take things on my own, almost acted in God’s behalf. 

I was selfish, not thinking about how my future spouse would feel. I constantly tried ending our relationship. Forcing him to marry me, else I would leave him. I even prayed hard to God, and asked for his wisdom over and over again if this relationship is really a part of His plans.

Until one day, I encountered this ministry about “Praying for your Future Spouse.” I realized that it is neither God nor my future spouse that was wrong, rather it was ME.

I idolized the idea of marriage. In my head, I created this picture of wedding and fairy tale endings. Thinking that it is okay to be in love with the idea because marriage is from God. The bible said, it is not good for man to be alone. So I craved for it, and I WAS WRONG. It became my IDOL.

I REPENTED and asked for God’s FORGIVENESS. I prayed for God to cleanse my heart of impurities, or anything that takes me away from His love. That He still needs to be NUMBER ONE in my life. 

I realized marriage will NEVER complete me, that it takes HARD WORK of patience and unconditional love. And I’m not quite ready for that yet.

Nevertheless, God is FAITHFUL enough to continuously work on my heart, preparing me to be the RIGHT PERSON for my future spouse. He asked me to TRY IT AGAIN, but this time, WITH HIM. Thus, simply enjoying the courting period with my boyfriend, and helping each other to grow closer to Him. 

Meanwhile, I will continue what God ordained me to do — MINISTRY. Waiting period could get lonely, but I know God is able. That He operates in SEASONS, so surely it will happen no matter how long it takes. All I need is FAITH

And to my boyfriend, know that I will wait for you — when you’re finally ready because God already told you so.


Family Salvation. 

“What if some were unfaithful? Does their faithlessness nullify the faithfulness of God?” (Romans 3:3)

Life as a follower of Jesus does not make me perfect. I questioned God on prayers left unanswered. Oftentimes, I am impatient.

Yes, my actions may have failed. However, God is FAITHFUL to finish what He started. He strengthened me during my weakness. He lifted me up, when I was down. He had faith in me, when I have none.

True enough, the long wait is over! 

Two of my family members who neglected Jesus for the longest time, started knowing Christ. My dad surrendered his life to Jesus recently, while my brother started attending bible study and services. Praise Jesus! 

I am in awe of God’s faithfulness. From FAMILY PERSECUTION turned into HOUSEHOLD SALVATION, indeed Lord Jesus Christ kept His promises!

Now, if you are reading this testimony, DO NOT LOSE HOPE. It is never too late to surrender your life to Jesus. The bible says, “seek His kingdom first and everything shall be added to you.”

Believe in God’s faithfulness. Trust that He will make everything beautiful in His time. Keep the faith! ❤️


To You. 

In love, there is no fear. Rather, perfect love casts out fear.

1 John 4:18

No amount of words could ever describe the pain I feel at the moment. The feeling is so familiar. It reminds me of a situation occured in the past that led me completely to God’s arms.

Before I said “yes” to the relationship, I deeply prayed about it. In which every decision I take, I ask God for His guidance. 

I still remember those times I always want to leave because I was so scared to fall in love again. However, God asked me to STAY and I did. Trusting God without having any assurance is walking by faith. As Christians, we are called to trust in the Lord. In which, I did exactly as commanded. I could not forget this instagram post, 

Try again, this time with God.

And so I did..

I might not understand what’s happening, all I know is what I feel for you — I love you.. so much.. I prayed for you.. I prayed for God’s will.. I prayed for you to surrender your life to Him.. That you will love and honor God more than me.. 

Trust me, I never wanted to give up. I want to stay. I could trade anything in the world now, just to be with you. 

I may be so scared right now, on what will happen. All I know is that God loved me unconditionally knowing that I might never love Him back, and as a Christian — He wants me to be Christlike. He wants me to LOVE unconditionally with NO FEAR. And that is what I want to do..