Why I stopped counting days in marriage.

Lately, I see articles and stories on why marriage don’t last forever. In fact, statistic shows that 4 out of 5 couples opt for legal separation during their prime years.

As a follower of Jesus, the challenge is how not to be a part of the norm? Sadly, the world view marriage only as a part time contract.

Being married for less than a year, indeed is a GREAT CHALLENGE!

To share a few,

My husband and I are completely, if not, extremely different. We have different views, perspective and characteristics. He is hot, I am cold. He is introvert, I am extrovert. He is precise, I exaggerate a lot. Not to mention, we grew up from different cultures and countries.

Thus, I must say, MARRIAGE is NOT EASY. It is a day to day SANCTIFICATION process!!!

In fact, I was NEVER the SAME PERSON I used to be when I was single — selfish, egocentric, overly jealous and controlling.

However, God is FAITHFUL to CHANGE ME day by day through my HUSBAND. Don’t take me wrong, I am FORGIVEN and FREE through the GRACE of GOD even before marriage.

Nevertheless, I am spiritually and emotionally renewed by God after exchanging vows with my husband.

Having said, MARRIAGE made me realized that APART FROM GOD, you will really never make it.

My spouse and I, needed to hold on, hand on hand with Jesus during the course of our marriage… until death do us part.

My take away?

Love is a constant choice of sacrifices, acceptance and forgiveness. These are the things I realized, while dating my husband with Jesus Christ.

Jesus, being part of our marriage is the only reason why I stopped counting days, months and anniversaries. A marriage built on Christ, is meant to last forever.

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Marrying Him is God’s Will.

It’s 3AM, and I am still wide awake..

I feel restless today, so I thought of continuing the post I wrote earlier about…

“I married an unbeliever”

It’s almost two months, since I came back to Philippines. With a heavy heart, I managed living apart from my husband in Sweden. It was never easy especially on realizing things after marriage.

However, God is faithful to hold on to His promises in my life, particularly in marriage. Despite the backslide, a few bumps along the way, little I know God indeed was guiding me all the way.

Marrying my husband is God’s will. Yes, it is His will. If you are a follower of Jesus, there is no accidents with Him. God, being sovereign as always, is in complete control. Likewise, He is and will always be in charge of my life.

Amidst confusion, God is faithful. He revealed to me His plans for my husband, our marriage and his faith in this verse from Romans 15:13,

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

It is the same verse on which God used to speak to me, when God revealed who my husband will be.

Now, if you happen to be on the same road of confusion, like what I had earlier? Never let go of God. Keep praying, believing while standing firm in faith.

Even if you don’t see changes in your situation or circumstances, keep on seeking Him. Is anything too hard for God?

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The Perfect Time.

Growing up, I always dream of having a perfect husband. Thinking that my knight and shining armor will come rescue me, yet I never found one. With a heavy heart, I sought love at the wrong places.

Nevertheless, I hit my rock bottom last 2015. It was christmas eve when I encountered Christ through this bible verse, “I will not allow pain without something new to be born again.” Hence, I realized the need to repent and to forgive the people who caused me pain. In return, I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. Since then, I felt complete.

Fast forward to December 2016, I met you at the most unexpected place. We started to know each other without expectations, simply enjoying each other’s company. Although I started to feel something towards you, my heart was still guarded. I prayed in every situation when it comes to you. I knew you were the one, not for how I feel, but because God revealed so.

I love you Jakob, and I desire to be your wife. For 28 years I have prayed that God would lead me to His choice and I am confident that His will is being fulfilled today. Through the pressures of the present and the uncertainties of the future, I promise to be faithful to you. I will love, serve, and obey you as long as we’re both alive. Christ told us that the wife must submit herself unto her own husband as unto the Lord. For as Christ is Head of His Church, so is the husband head of his wife.

Jakob, you have no idea how long I waited for you. Our love story is far from being perfect, yet it will always be my favorite. Until now, I am still in awe on how you respected my decision to keep my purity until this day we say I do. Truly, you are God’s living testimony of His faithfulness in my life.

Indeed, God has made everything beautiful in His time (Ecc 3:11). ❤️




I am no longer slave to fear. So always pray and never give up.

Reading the bible should be a vital part of our relationship to Christ. It is important that we understand the word of God, as we continue our journey on Earth.

However, there are certain parts or books from the bible I try to avoid as much as I can — the book of Revelations. It is where the bible speaks about how the world ends, and how Jesus will return for His people. As scary it may seem, I had the courage to finish it. Thanks to the Holy Spirit!

As I read the word, these are the verses which strike me the most!

The Bible is very clear, a NEW HEAVEN and EARTH will come soon. Having said, everything we see in this world will soon be gone.

One of its promises on which Christians have long been waiting is where God will be with His followers. Pain, suffering and hardships would be taken away. The old pattern of our current world will be extinct.

Revelations stated that God will reveal its full glory to all of us. His followers — the believers of His Son Jesus Christ will inherit an eternal life.

However, for those who follow the devil, the ways of this earthly world such as idolaters, the unbelievers, the sexually immoral, cowards, and all pervert liars will NEVER inherit the kingdom of God. Hence, all will BURN down to a blazing fire of sulfur.

Any unbeliever will never enter God’s kingdom.

The Bible greatly speaks about the 2nd coming of Jesus. Whether when it is suppose to happen, we can’t tell. All we know is that Jesus will SOON return for His people.

Honestly, it is really scary. We deserve to rot in hell because of our sinful nature. Yet, God is patient to each and one of us. He promised to give an ETERNAL LIFE to anyone who would accept Jesus as their Lord and Savior (Rom 6:23).

Thus, it is NOT too late! Repent, accept Jesus and be baptized! The bible says, anyone who confess from their mouth and accept Jesus in their heart as Lord and Savior will be saved. ❤️


Idolizing Marriage.

“Fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. (Hebrews 12:12)”

Have you ever wanted something in your life, so badly? Whether it is your job, money, fame or a person, we all have secret desires. In my case, I want MARRIAGE.

Following Jesus for almost two years takes a lot of effort. Actually, not from you, but Him. 

After submitting my life to Christ, and being single for a year, I thought I was all set. I was mentally, psychologically and physically prepared for my future spouse. I prayed hard for Him to answer. I was very impatient.

I started asking God for a husband, until He sent what I needed. Yet, I was slow and careful in entering this relationship because I never wanted to get hurt. Nevertheless, I still grabbed the opportunity because of God’s comfirmation.

Over the course of our relationship, I know HE IS THE ONE — simply because GOD SAID SO

I started rushing things, bringing the idea of marriage into it. In my mind, I have this picture of him and I saying our vows in the eyes of God. However, my future spouse isn’t ready yet. 

He asked me to wait, while working on his relationship with God and his dreams. Although I completely understand what he wants, I started losing my patience.

I started to question Jesus regarding the man He sent me. My fears crippled in my heart, and raised in my thoughts. I tried to take things on my own, almost acted in God’s behalf. 

I was selfish, not thinking about how my future spouse would feel. I constantly tried ending our relationship. Forcing him to marry me, else I would leave him. I even prayed hard to God, and asked for his wisdom over and over again if this relationship is really a part of His plans.

Until one day, I encountered this ministry about “Praying for your Future Spouse.” I realized that it is neither God nor my future spouse that was wrong, rather it was ME.

I idolized the idea of marriage. In my head, I created this picture of wedding and fairy tale endings. Thinking that it is okay to be in love with the idea because marriage is from God. The bible said, it is not good for man to be alone. So I craved for it, and I WAS WRONG. It became my IDOL.

I REPENTED and asked for God’s FORGIVENESS. I prayed for God to cleanse my heart of impurities, or anything that takes me away from His love. That He still needs to be NUMBER ONE in my life. 

I realized marriage will NEVER complete me, that it takes HARD WORK of patience and unconditional love. And I’m not quite ready for that yet.

Nevertheless, God is FAITHFUL enough to continuously work on my heart, preparing me to be the RIGHT PERSON for my future spouse. He asked me to TRY IT AGAIN, but this time, WITH HIM. Thus, simply enjoying the courting period with my boyfriend, and helping each other to grow closer to Him. 

Meanwhile, I will continue what God ordained me to do — MINISTRY. Waiting period could get lonely, but I know God is able. That He operates in SEASONS, so surely it will happen no matter how long it takes. All I need is FAITH

And to my boyfriend, know that I will wait for you — when you’re finally ready because God already told you so.


Family Salvation. 

“What if some were unfaithful? Does their faithlessness nullify the faithfulness of God?” (Romans 3:3)

Life as a follower of Jesus does not make me perfect. I questioned God on prayers left unanswered. Oftentimes, I am impatient.

Yes, my actions may have failed. However, God is FAITHFUL to finish what He started. He strengthened me during my weakness. He lifted me up, when I was down. He had faith in me, when I have none.

True enough, the long wait is over! 

Two of my family members who neglected Jesus for the longest time, started knowing Christ. My dad surrendered his life to Jesus recently, while my brother started attending bible study and services. Praise Jesus! 

I am in awe of God’s faithfulness. From FAMILY PERSECUTION turned into HOUSEHOLD SALVATION, indeed Lord Jesus Christ kept His promises!

Now, if you are reading this testimony, DO NOT LOSE HOPE. It is never too late to surrender your life to Jesus. The bible says, “seek His kingdom first and everything shall be added to you.”

Believe in God’s faithfulness. Trust that He will make everything beautiful in His time. Keep the faith! ❤️


Keeping that Faith. 

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Romans 8:28

I’ve been through a lot in life. Broken family, relationships which ended painfully and life’s uncertainty. Oftentimes, I feel scared on what the future holds for me. Doubts filled my thoughts with despair and anxiety. I questioned myself, “can I still make it through?” 

When Jesus came into my life, everything made sense. I felt complete, loved and appreciated. For the first time in history, I felt secured — in Jesus, I have ETERNAL LIFE.

While it is true that I still face struggle daily and problems heavier than I ever had before, I know God is with me. He will always guide my path. I know all things will work together for my good because I have a God who is FAITHFUL.

Whatever God promised me — salvation of family members and marriage, God will make it happen in His PERFECT TIME. I trust Him it will all happen, no matter how long it takes. Waiting could be hard, but I’ll use it to serve and worship the Lord through ministry. 

If by any chance you face the same worries in life, DO NOT LOSE HOPE. God is able and will direct your steps according to His purpose. Keep the faith! ❤️


Doubting God.

For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and future. ❤️ 

Jeremiah 29:11

Did you ever question God? Did you ask why you have pain despite surrendering everything to Him?

Lately, my mind drifts away. Life seems to be tougher than ever. It reached the point I asked why I have struggles, anxiety and fear. To think that I’ve surrendered my life to Him. I did my part as His follower. I tried my best to share the gospel to others. All my decisions are based on His words. What could possibly go wrong?

Nevertheless, I started to feel depress. I even thought of going back to my old lifestyle, where life is way easier and carefree. Each day, “I ask, why Lord? Why do I have pain? “..

However, God is PATIENT. He knows I am weak. He is able to handle my ambiguities or doubts. More than that, God is FAITHFUL. He ALWAYS keeps His PROMISES. No amount of sin can ever change God’s mind for His greater plans and purpose in my life. 

All those times I doubted, there was no instance He never answered my questions. God wants me to HOLD ON. He wants me to have FAITH on Him. I may not understand what’s going on right now, but I TRUST Him. God knows what He is doing and He is in STILL in CONTROL. 

I realized it was never what I did for Him, rather it’s what Jesus Christ did for me in the cross — when He gave His life for my eternal life. The most perfect description of unconditional love (John 3:16). ❤️

What about you? Do you trust God? 


An Open Letter To My Future Husband

“And God has made everything beautiful in its time” ❤️

Ecclesiastes 3:11

A Letter To My Future Husband,

As a little girl, I’ve always dream of having my own prince charming who would rescue me from the tall castle. A knight and shining armor who would slay the dragon just to be with me. Growing up, I’m in love with the same idea that chivalry is not dead. 

Little I know, I was already saved by a Man 2,000 years ago. A Man who gives UNCONDITIONAL LOVE that no gentleman can ever offer to any woman (John 3:16). He is God and Man at the same time, who went down to serve and not to be served. 

He thought me to dream BIG and believe that nothing is impossible with Him (Phil 4:13). That all I need is FAITH and a heart to OBEY His word. A Man who assures me that I am loved and worthy to be pursued. He reminds me that as long as He exist, I will NEVER be alone. A Man I call my Lord, my Savior, my King, He is Jesus Christ.

As He prepares me to a NEW SEASON, I can finally say that I am READY for you. That God molded me first to do His will and advance His kingdom. 

He is now ready to give my heart to you. That He is more than willing as long as you promise Him that you seek Him first and His kingdom. That you will honor and serve Him with all your heart. For God prepares you to take charge of our family. That you are ready to accept me and my past. That you will love my daughter Kaella, more than you will love me. 

My future husband, know that I always pray for you. I promise to honor and submit myself to you. That I will keep my purity until the day we say, I do. ❤️


Fear not. 

“Don’t be afraid, just believe.” Mark 5:36

Have you ever been in a situation you had doubts? Whether you prayed or believed something, but never happened?

Often times, I find myself questioning why certain things are not happening. Despite praying about it, God seems to be slow in answering my prayers. I started to fear, worry and think that God is not hearing. Or probably, I’m not loud enough to say what I want. 

However, God is BIGGER than my doubts. He is able and faithful. God takes care of His sheep because He is our shepherd. He knows us by name and promises to answers our prayer whenever we call upon to Him. Little we know, God is working from the backend. 

Hence, all we need is FAITH. We have to believe and obey His word. Regardless how long it may take for God to answer, we should remember that God operates in season (Ecc 3:11). And that all things work together for the good of those who loves Him (Rom 8:28).

Step out of faith and believe that God hears us because we are His children. If you pray in name of Jesus, know that your requests are already answered. Do not be afraid, just believe.