Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!
2 Corinthians 5:17
Here is my TESTIMONY that I like to share with you.
During my childhood years, I used to search love from fairy tale and romantic films. The reason was due to my parents separation when I was only 12 years old. How they parted ways is still vivid in my memory.
Growing up alone was the hardest. There was no proper guidance, so to speak.
Back in high school and college, I studied in an exclusive school for girls which eventually led me to homosexuality. In between, I worked in the modeling industry which included men’s magazine, tv commercials, ramp, and all sorts just to sustain a luxurious lifestyle.
Things changed after meeting my child’s father. I was pregnant at the age of 20, since I wanted to have my own family. After six years of relationship, we decided to part ways because I was not really happy.
I entered a lot of short time happiness and flings, but never really had the satisfaction until I met my next boyfriend. He is a foreigner, and his culture is different. In him, I found security and contentment. To conclude, my entire life revolved around him. Hence, he was my greatest idolatry.
The guy proposed marriage, and so I accepted. At first, I was in cloud nine! However, I started to feel different. I was NOT happy. Maybe the relationship was not right? He accepted my past? Yes. He loves me? Yes. However, he cannot bring my daughter once we move in his country. That alone changed my entire perspective. Thus, both decided to end the engagement.
Trust me, my life was shattered into pieces! My heart was broken, even I questioned God why I had to go through these. “What is my purpose? Why do I exist?”
However, it is during this tough moment when God spoke and asked me to come home. God as my Father, disciplines me as His own daughter. He brought me back to the right track, just when I seem to be so lost. He understands how painful it was, but it is His way to remind me to trust His plans accordingly.
God talked to me through this bible verse,
“”In the same way I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born,” says the Lord. “If I cause you the pain, I will not stop you from giving birth to your new nation,” says your God.”” Isaiah 66:9
That minute, I surrendered my life to Jesus! It was a 180 degree turn! A radical change, isn’t it?
On January 2016, I joined my friends in fasting and requested only one prayer. I asked God, if I can have a personal relationship with Him.
True enough, I was baptized last April 17, 2016. Indeed God is faithful! I was not worthy of His love, but because Jesus died for me, my life started to have a meaning. My brokenness was replaced with a purpose. I was forgiven and set free! He saved me through His death on the cross, and rose on the third day for my eternal life. Apart from being saved, my relationship with God is restored through Jesus Christ (Rom 6:23).
Life with Jesus did not spare me from any problem, or trials. However, I became more of a conqueror through my Lord and Savior. I no longer fear my enemies, nor death for in Jesus I have ETERNAL LIFE.
A year after, I am blessed with a husband and we are living together with my daughter in Sweden. Not only I am married, my parents and sibling started attending the church as well, and vowed to know Jesus more. God truly fulfilled His promise, “For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and future (Jer 29:11).”
Now, there is a reason why you are reading my testimony. It is not an accident. Like me, you were chosen by God. Come as you are, no matter how broken your past is. You are not an accident. In Jesus Christ, you have a PURPOSE.
God has plans for you as well. Jesus never promised it would be easy, but it’s all worth it. ❤️