I can’t tell if it’s killing me or making me stronger.

It’s only been a few hours, since I broke up with my man. It was not a mutual decision, and it has been long overdue already. I had to ponder for days even before I was able to make up my mind.

For years, I felt stuck in an old picture, wherein the scenario is same. Our relationship is a cycle of pointless drama and endless arguments. Most of the time, I already gave up, but it’s a million times more of the getting-back-together period. For a while, I felt tired and I had second thoughts, and eventually ask for changes. So I ask myself, am I still happy? Am I contented with this? I had to sort things out, in order to avoid the same mistakes over and over again.

Now, the decision has been finalized. I want to be happy, not only because i wanted to, but I deserved to.



How would you know, if you still are making the right choices?

Have you ever experience in your life, wherein you commit the same mistake which caused you the same problem, over and over again? Actually, I never felt so tired in my whole life, until this day came forward. I know I may sound hypocrite for saying this a lot of times. Trying to give up and move on, but ending up on the same track. So tiring, literally. I want change. And I want it now.
How I wish I could explain what had happened. But I just can’t.

I know I’m strong enough to do this on my own. I know I can. And I believe that I can. I will. God help me.